we have looked forward to returning to tn for a year now. the week is almost up and it can with confidence say i am 99.99% sure i am done having anymore kids and that i never want to go on vacation with them again until they are much, MUCH older!!! branson has been so horrible! back talking, stomping, throwing an attitude. jaxon has cried because he hasn't had his bed or if one of us walks out the room. we can't go do anything because he gets tired and wants to nap as soon as we try to go anywhere. then when we are able to get somewhere we can't see anything for all the rude old people!! this has just been such an eye opener. and matt has finally realized just exactly what it's like to be around 2 kids 24/7, it's NOT fun. we are so limited to what we can do with them anyway, most things are for older kids or kids with certain height & weight requirements. and other things we just can't do period. we have to go eat early and come back early. oh wait what's the difference in being here on vacation and being at home?
we can't get any help from anyone at home to watch our kids so what would be any different anywhere else? matt keeps talking about wanting to take a vacation with just us, no kids. i told him to let me know how that works out for him because unless we hire a nanny and actually PAY someone to keep our kids then we'll never get a vacation much less a night or few hours alone! it's sad that grandparents don't want to spend time with their grandkids. it's like pulling teeth to have anyone watch them! they say "well you never ask us to watch them" well no i'm not going to ask you because when i have in the past it seemed like such an inconvenience for them. the only people in our family that would be willing to spend time with them can't for health reasons! we can't even get my MIL to keep them because she's always watching "the others" who are held in such high regard for some reason. everything they do is perfect and great.
even our anniversary was crapped on just like last year. it's sad that we can't get ANYONE willing to watch our kids so we can have time together or much less even alone. when we visited the chapel we got married at and talked to the preacher he tried to stress just how important it was for young couples, with young kids to get time together without kids. yeah i know it's important but when you have NO ONE willing to help how the hell are you suppose to get that?! just like all these moms i see constantly going to the gym, shopping, night out with the girls... how do they do it? who are they always getting to watch their kids because i'd like to know if they're up for hire!! is it sad that i even looked on craigslist for a babysitter? not that i would EVER do that but jeez really? i think i remember being "dumped off" a lot when i was younger. i just hate that no one is willing to help yet so many people constantly say "you have to MAKE time". well will someone please explain to me how you make time when there's no one to help!?!
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