better of

in the last 8 months i have learned a lot. i've learned a lot about who my friends are, who my friends never were, what my "family" truly thinks of me, who my family truly was all along and who i really no longer need in my life to succeed and be happy. since i went into the hospital with jaxon people showed their true colors to me. there's the ones who were constantly calling, texting or coming to see me and there's the ones who were just too self centered and too self absorbed to care about anything other than themselves.

i haven't spoke to a lot of people since jaxon's birth. and then there's a lot that only came around since his dramatic birth. there was a lot who i just stopped talking to because we differed so much and things changed between our friendship. i've learned that i'm better off having a 19 year old for my best girlfriend. at least she's ALWAYS been there for me! i'm better off having those few certain guys [& their wives] that were there on that dark morning, i'm better off having those 2 guy friends that have always been their for my husband. i'm better off with my family that has always loved me and wanted nothing but my happiness. i'm better off with my amazing in laws who have loved me like a daughter for the last 3 years. and i'm much better off with my husband and our 2 boys.