the number 14

today while i was looking through my calendar and counting my weeks and how far along i would be on certain dates i realize that on feb 14 i would be 35 weeks and then realized that feb 14 was the very first tuesday that the 14th fell on and i got tears in my eyes and said i want the baby to come on that date!! not because it's valentine's day, although that would give me a good reason to finally like that date but because it's the first tuesday that the 14th falls on and aunt nanny passed away on tuesday the 14th (of june) some may think that's silly to want a baby born on a specific numerical date but i've always been like that. branson & jaxon always ran right close together only being 1 day off from both being the 28th. my LMP with branson was 3/28 and he was born 11/28. we found out i was pregnant with jaxon on 12/28 and he was born 9/27, almost! so this time we found out i was pregnant on 6/14 and i would so love for this baby to be born on 2/14. yes that's 35 weeks but i don't go full term. i'm almost at 'my' half way point -17 weeks- 

we've really been working hard lately to make sure everything is set and ready for this baby sooner than we have with the other 2. things got crazy at 30 weeks with jaxon so we want to make sure everything is done & ready and just waiting on baby this time in case that happens again. i hope we don't have a wild ride again! but we want to be prepared for it just in case. i'll be 27, almost 28 weeks at Christmas & that's our goal to have the baby's room and the boys' room finished. the rooms have already been picked out we just need to know which one we get to use :) but there won't be any "building" pictures this time since we're not sharing the gender. everything will be a surprise until the birth. if you haven't noticed we've been really private about everything this time and would like to keep it that way. this is our last and we would like to enjoy it as much as possible. the names, gender, room decor will all be kept secret until the birth. we would rather focus on the joy of a new baby rather than the gender because we feel like no matter what this child is an absolute welcomed and excited blessing. we didn't think we were honestly going to be able to have anymore for various reasons, mainly my health. but then with the passing of my aunt we felt like she left a special gift for us. she loved my boys so much and i miss her so much! 

this baby is a constant reminder to me that life goes on and she would be more than thrilled no matter what the sex of this baby was. her and roger & lana were the only ones in my family that ever gave us any excitement when we announced a baby. and i'm not just meaning "congrats" but the all out excitement, jumping up and down, oh my gosh that i've always wanted and sorta thought the rest of my family would do but didn't. they never thought of jaxon as "another" boy they thought of him as another baby to be excited about which is exactly what we want everyone else to think too which is why we're not announcing gender. i don't think i can stress this enough!! why do people focus so much on the gender and just have to open their mouth about gender? why can't they just say congrats and anything else general instead of focusing on that? it really bothered me last time and i really wanted a girl last time, i still do but i'm trying not to focus so much on that this time. i'm just glad we have a baby coming. and i will say this again i will not be nice when a comment is made about how this one 'needs' to be a girl or whatever else someone has to open their mouth and say about a girl. i mean do you really just not think before you open your mouth?! well guess what... i'm going to make you think twice before saying something to anyone else again!