i want to make something 100% LOUD AND CLEAR RIGHT NOW....
no longer care that i do not and will never have a daughter!!!
i am sick of people thinking i am bitter, mad, upset, pissed off or jealous of people that have daughters. that is not the case. does it suck that i'll never get the chance to shop on the other side of the store, get her ready for prom or her wedding, hell yes it does but then i think about some females i've met and how absolutely rude, materialistic they are and how they are so high maintenance they are which in turn makes them spoiled brats. i don't want a daughter if the end result would be that. i will be the first to admit that i absolutely hate with a passion being the only female in this house. hate it, hate it!! but there's absolutely nothing i can do to change it. i am tired of people seeing me and making comments about "well now all you need is a little girl" or "you're just jealous that they have a girl and you don't" NO i don't and NO i'm not!! i can say with 99.99999% certainty i am done having kids! i don't want anymore. i do not want a girl. and let me remind these "moms of daughters who think i'm jealous" your little girl will be dating, MY sons. they will eventually marry, MY sons and MY sons will be taking care of your daughters. they will be the man in her life then so i'm making sure that i raise my boys to know how to treat women so that one day your daughters can marry them. but if you're going to continue to throw in my face that i'm only jealous of you because you have a daughter and i don't then i don't want my sons having anything to do with "those" kinds of girls or their moms!
i have come to terms with the 2 BOYS i have and that they are all i will ever pretty much have. did it suck at first, yes. was i upset at first, yes. but it was not because of them being boys. it was for the "death" so to speak of the child i would never get the opportunity to experience and to raise. so PLEASE stop with your judgments about me being jealous of you because i am in no ways jealous of you. i keep thinking about soon my boys will be working with daddy on saturdays leaving me to have me time again. i don't have to share my makeup or clothes with my daughter. i'm the only one that gets pretty little pink, girly things. it's all just for me. i am the only girl in the house which at times absolutely SUCKS because there's no one here to understand what we as a female goes through and when it's monday night football. but then i like being the only female because my boys will love their momma and will always want my approval on things such as the girl they're dating, what college they'll go to, what girl they'll marry. it's always said that boys will marry someone much like their mom and they hold their mom's opinions in very high regards. they almost put their moms up on a pedestal. i am VERY happy to have the TWO BOYS i have and could care less if i ever have a daughter. apparently someone (someone higher) thinks i needed 2 sons in my life so i'm no longer going to question it. i'm just to accept what i've been dealt and go on with it. but this is the last time i will ever say this. so to all those moms of boys, WE ROCK! to the moms of girls who think we are jealous of you, just because you have something doesn't always mean you deserve it.
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