i've never been so ready for life to get back to "normal" where i don't have to worry about constantly needing eggs, flour, having enough cake stuff, having to always get up, get ready, put on makeup, or someone always coming to the house. jaxon is getting a speech eval to see what can be done about his not drinking. and i'm taking him to the ped SOON to see what's going on with his constant screaming. as soon as we leave the house and attempt to go anywhere all he does is scream until we get home and he gets in his bed. it doesn't matter what time it is he just wants to go home and go to his bed. the last 2 months we've tried to go out to eat as soon as we sit down he screams. one of us usually ends up not eating but this last time we went out was horrible! i spent the entire time sitting in the car while branson & matt ate inside. jaxon screamed from the time we walked in until we got home. that's almost 2 hours!!! my nerves are absolutely shot. i don't know what to do. i don't know what his problem is. branson wanted his bed but no like this. no one wants to even keep jaxon now because of this. if they do keep him i always have to take him to them which makes it 10 times worse!!! they just won't come to our house to keep him for some reason?! so now i'm never able to go out anymore. if i do go out i can't even go out with my family one of us has to stay at home with jaxon. one of us ends up not eating so we don't get to eat as a family anymore. matt gets so mad at ME because i'm losing it. i snap at anything. but dammit he's not here all day every day cooped up with 2 kids, never able to go anywhere because every time you walk out the door the kid screams!! i have things i need to do, places i need to go and sometimes i just need to get out but i can't anymore. i hate this. he also refuses to drink. i've tried every cup, every straw, every drink and he doesn't want any of it!!! i just know if something doesn't get fixed SOON i'm going to go insane. i feel so stressed all the time, especially since i dealt with that cake idiot on saturday, that even sitting here my nerves are so messed up i could throw up.
:( I hope you're able to find out what is going on with Jaxon soon! Is he not even taking a bottle? Only food? Poor baby :( You may want to have the PED check him reflux, both of mine had it and they Sara screamed CONSTANTLY until she was on medicine for it and I know the drinking could flare it up for him where food may not do the same. Does he arch his back and look up when screaming? (that is one of the signs of it) But I do hope whatever it is, is better soon. And girl I am RIGHT there with you on the stress level and feeling like your going insane and snapping at any and everything! Unfortunately men (and any mom who doesn't stay at home for the majority) doesn't understand what we go through on a daily basis, they think that we have it EASY. BULLSHIT!! I wish this JOB was easy! I'd take the stress from a real job anyday over this kind of stress :( But if you want to talk you can always message me on facebook!
ReplyDeletehe's been off the bottle for months. he cut himself off of it around 10 mths. branson had reflux so i know all the signs and he doesn't show any of them. he's just started this since he came off of formula. it doesn't matter what he try to give him, tea, water, chocolate milk, dr pepper and in a cup, straw, dipping the straw, open cup, bottle he just won't. we're having a speech therapist come out monday to watch him and see what she thinks and then i'm taking him to the peds as well to see what's going on with these screaming fits. yes my stress is through the roof and yet ANOTHER person is having a girl and then is going and seriously bragging and rubbing it in matt's face!! his best friend and it's like seriously? really i mean really man you have the balls to rub that in our face?!! you have a death wish huh? and no unless someone is home 24/7 at this "job" they'll never understand. it's awful most days.
ReplyDeletePoor Jaxon :( And wow! Yeah I can't believe that someone is bragging about and rubbing it in matt's face!! Seriously, WTF are they thinking!?!!
ReplyDeleteYea it's all just piling up for sure. Oh yes!! He's like dude really you know how bad we want a girl so shut up!!! But no he just keeps on and on. I knew it would be a girl from day 1, it's always a girl for everybody else but me!
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