4 and no more

wow! what a busy last 6 weeks. Jaxon is growing great. he's almost 8lbs now. i don't know what to do with a "normal" baby. it took Branson forever before he reached 8lbs. he was still wearing preemie clothes at 5mths old. Jaxon is wearing still wearing a few preemie things but mostly newborn. he eats every 3 hrs on the dot too. you can always tell what time it is by him haha. he looks just like Matt still i think. he's a great baby thank goodness. i had my 6 weeks check monday and got some meds to help increase my breastmilk because i wanted to continue but couldn't keep up with him. turns out i have an allergic reaction to those meds. i started having muscle spasims so we thought. then my neck kept twisting one way and i couldn't control it. my hands and toes started to curl and then my arms and face became affected. it started earlier in the day on tuesday but by tuesday night it was hurting me so bad matt had to call an ambulance. it started affecting my breathing before they arrived. i knew the guy tht showed up so that always makes it better. he said it looked like i was having a panick attack because that's how people react when they have one. they become all contorted and can't control it. they loaded me on the stretcher, started and IV and gave me a benadryl shot. within the time it took that med to hit my veins my arms fell beside me, my face withdrew and my "spasims" stopped. wow did i feel much better! i think i told Igor i loved him a million times. after being like that for almost 4 hrs or more my muscles hurt so bad. it was such a relief. we went on to the ER and they just watched me for about an hr or so then sent me home. i threw that medicine away!!! i can still tell my reflexes are slow and my speech has been affected. it's slurred and sometimes it takes me a little bit to make the connection from my brain to my mouth to get the words out. Matt seems to think i had a mild stroke from the after effects. then the very next day we're home watching tv and see a commercial for a lawyers office talking about that exact medicine! talking about how it has a blackbox warning, which is the strongest warning possible on a med. i called them and talked to them. they said if i continued to have problems to go to the neurologist and ask them to test of retardive dysconesia. this could have affected me for the rest of my life! it probably really would have done worse damage had i not had Matt call the ambulance that night and just went to bed instead. i think it worried him too. this makes me afraid to ever take any medications ever again! the last 2 meds i've taken i've had allergic reactions to. i can't take hydrocodone because it makes me welp up and itch all over and now this that could cause damage to my body. i think i'll just stick to tylenol from now on. but i'm slowly feeling better. my muscles ache from being drawn up for so long and i feel like i've ran a marathon. weird how after i posted about what happened to me another friend of mine had the exact same thing happened to her when she took the medicine. but i think i'm going to call the breastfeeding quits. i tried, i gave it an honest effort the first several weeks and that's really all the matters the most anyway. Branson was bottle fed and he turned out just fine, as well as many other babies. just another hump in the road i guess. i can't ever seem to have a normal pregnancy and things return to life as "normal"