home, again...

well i'm back home, again... for now. i came home early monday morning and just about as soon as i got home i showered to get the "hospital" off of me, laid down on the couch and me and the boys took a long nap until matt got home.  i then again took another nap around 4ish. so far the contractions had stayed away and i took a procardia pill at 7pm that night and we were all in bed by 8:15!! it was so nice to get that much sleep and i finally felt better bc when i left the hospital that morning i felt worse than when i went in. how is that possible you go in feeling ok and leave feeling worse? so anyway i had my regular scheduled 33 week appt tuesday at 2:30. i got up that morning feeling pressure again but no contractions. about 1pm when i had started getting ready i started feeling contractions again. they were consistent and every 2 minutes apart. when i got to my appt they hooked me up to the monitors once again and saw how high they were registering. dr hall wanted to check me since he couldn't do an FFN, i am still 2-2.5cm and then he sent me on my merry way right back over to the hospital. and like always i get hit with a shot of terb, IV hung, antibiotic, 2 procardia pills and labs. they were so busy they didn't have any triage rooms available and i had to sit in a room for a few hours with just a curtain, no bathroom or shower. those girls at stanly L&D have been hopping since sunday bless their hearts! and it's not even the full moon yet!!

dr hall also ordered an ultrasound to check her weight bc we have yet to have any kind of scan since 20 weeks and we really wanted to know for peace of mind since she could be born any minute. last time i was there in dec the tech wouldn't tell us anything, wouldn't let matt go with me, wouldn't even let me see the screen!! she blocked my view completely, i was pissed bc i think i have a right to know. the guy that came was really nice, he let matt go with us, let us look at the screen, explained what he was looking for. dr hall had ordered a test on her that scored her a certain amount of points (i can't remember the name) but she got up to 8 points for movements, practicing her breathing and a few other little things and then 2 points were for her being on the NST monitors in my room. we were watching her "breathe" so she has the reflex down good. she didn't want to move much though bc she was like me still jacked up and coming down off terb but she did. and his weight guess was 4lbs 14oz and measuring 32W 3D (currently 33W 1D) branson was born at 34 weeks weighing 4lbs 7oz, jaxon was measured at 3lbs 9oz when i was in NE at 34 weeks so her size really surprised us! now it can still go up or down some either way but that's still pretty good. when we got back from ultrasound my normal room 212 was all ready for me. yay *note sarcasm* but that's a bad bad room... the contractions were still stopped for the current time but i still had to get terb every 3 hours just to make sure. around 11ish andrea came in and i still couldn't get comfortable to sleep and i had the option to get an ambien but the last few times i've taken it i slept worse if at all. so i got some lovely stuff called stadol :) i had it when they wanted to knock me out and make me rest when i was pregnant with branson so i knew it would put me to sleep. boy let me tell you i haven't slept that good in forever!!! i was completely relaxed and totally out of this world. she said i had a few contractions over night but nothing that really mattered. this morning the midwife, hunneycutt came in and said she didn't see any reason to check me since i hadn't contracted anymore and she felt ok sending me home. she sent me home with some prescriptions to hold me off hopefully for the next 6 days for terb pills and iron pills bc from my blood work i started to look a little anemic. my procardia pills will last 24 hours, terb pills will last 6 so i can sort of double up. so now we wait...

i really see it as being a struggle to make it til next tuesday! while we were sitting in applebees for lunch i could feel some contractions and we came straight home so i could take a procardia and a nap. dr hall wants to see me tomorrow and maybe he'll be able to do an FFN test then. i just know i'm tired, i'm wore out from the back and forth, the backs of my arms are one big bruise and so tender from all the terb shots. and i don't have many veins left for IVs, we just want her here at this point. yes she'd be early but this isn't our first go with a preemie either. this is so trying on everybody bc we have to find someone to stay with the boys while matt & i stay overnight. aunt jordan has been GREAT, thank you SO much!!! matt doesn't get any time off work for anything so it's not like he can just call in if something happens. it's just hard and then the added, unnecessary family drama... so pretty much from this point until she's here i am staying at home and only going to appts and only worrying about me, her, matt and the boys. to heck with everybody else. i have bigger things to worry about right now.