it's been a while since i posted a pregnant blog... well things are, going. i'm still sick and i'm 13 weeks 3 days. i got sick twice last week actually and i'm sitting here eating crackers again now. it just comes randomly. i barely even got up out of bed today because i felt like crap with a headache and nausea. all i want to do is lay around the house in my pjs with no makeup, my hair in a pony tail and not go anywhere because i feel so bad most of the time. Branson was NOTHING like this. he was so easy. the dream pregnancy. no sickness, no constant stretching in my belly and cramping in the rounds [round ligaments], no heartburn or indigestion. unless the next few weeks and months get better i'm so ready for this pregnancy to be over & have the end results [the baby] here with us.
that's something i've read a lot about with your second. you're more excited about the the end result than the actual process. maybe it's because you've already been through this once before and everything isn't new and exciting this time. or you're sick like me and the 2 pregnancies were complete opposites. don't get me wrong you don't love the baby ANY less or love the little movements you feel, you're just ready to have her/him here unlike savoring every moment. or maybe it's because you already have a child that's keeping you busy that keeps you from sitting down and concentrating so much on your current state. i know that having Branson to take care of has aggrivated a lot more of my symptoms though. i think that's one of the reason my rounds hurt so much; from picking him up constantly.
we've finally decided on our names. we changed the little girl's middle name but that's the only changes we've made. i'm soooo in love with the names too. the little boy's has such special meaning to Matt & i both [you'll learn why later if it's a boy] and whatever the baby turns out to be, sorry but we're not telling the other name we chose. we love them so much we may opt for a #3 and DEFINATLY will want to use it later we have also decided we're going to have a 3D/ 4D ultrasound scan done sometime soon. my next appointment in march 24 and i'll be 16W 3D so i'm not really sure if i'll get set up for a scan then or not. if not then we wouldn't know before we left for tn and i just gotta know!! my bff in tn, angie will be finding out what she's having that day. i'm so excited!! we'll both know what's in our bellies at the wedding [expect lots of belly pictures haha. we'll just make tanya poke her belly out & fake it so she doesn't feel left out. looooove you haha!!]
Matt, Branson & i leave next week to go to tn actually to get our marriage license [how exciting!!!] i got a call from the dress shop, the girls' dresses are here YAY!she said they were beautiful [as to be expected haha] i pick my dress up from alterations on saturday. omg my momma bought me the most gorgeous necklace/ earrings to go with my dress!! they match perfectly!!!! they have the exact same beads as what's on my dress. i'm so excited! and YES! my dress still fits perfectly. she even added some sewn in cups so i didn't have to buy the stick on ones and let's just say the ladies sit very nicely in it. momma laughed and said they were up under my chin but it's still VERY classy and elegant [which is what this wedding is all about] not showing excess of cleavage and looking like a tramp on my wedding day.
i haven't had anymore bad wedding dreams lately. just wedding dreams, thank goodness. i was telling the lady who's fixing my dress of all the "disasters" i've dreamt and she looked at me, smiled & said "i have specialized in wedding dress alterations for the last 40+ years, i have never ruined a dress. so don't be having any dreams on me". i've had dreams that 6 inches of my hair got cut off & they runined my wedding hair [only because Jessica wasn't cutting it haha], the bridesmaid dress didn't fit and it was the wrong bridesmaid wearing the dress anyway. the wrong groom was at the end of the aisle, it was my ex husband YUCK! GROSS! EWW!! instead of tulips they gave me roses. if you know me you KNOW i HATE HATE HATE roses. and then all of the guests kept walking in my room trying to sneak a peek at me BEFORE the wedding and i was getting so mad because they were telling me i needed to change this or that. ugh! but lately the dreams have been good. i think because certain stresses were relieved from my shoulders. everything's been happy, gorgeous, the weather was perfect [oh! i just felt a thump the second or third for the night]
there's no nerves at all about anything. after we go up there next week everything is finalized and paid for. no worries. no stress. we'll just be counting down the last few days & enjoying this time. i have something special planned for Branson that day. i just hope i can hold it together [being all pregnant & hormonal] omg we watched extreme home makeover the other night and it was for a family who had a preemie and she also photographed preemies for families. one couple had a preemie live a few days, another only 7 hours. i was bawling in the chair!! just knowing i had a preemie and he was sooooo lucky that sometimes so many aren't. matt didn't laugh at me & call me hormonal, he asked if i could bare to watch it. i think that's really the only thing i've cried over until a bit ago when samantha helped me chose a song for our ultrasound dvd. ugh! it's perfect & i just cried and cried haha.
well i think that's all the news for now. i've only gained a lb or 2 since my last visit in jan to dr williams and my belly really isn't getting big yet. some days i feel huge and others i'm ok but lately i feel gianormous! the heart rate that day registered at 144. Branson loves watching baby shows with me. he crawls on the couch or in my lap and yells "BABY!" at the tv. it's so cute. he's really going to enjoy this big brother thing. he even picked up the baby doll i got him and gave it a hug and kiss. he was so gentle. we've got so many plans for this summer and what we want to do and add to the house or places to visit. we're just really excited to know if this baby is a "J" or a "B" yet. several people think they know, Matt thinks it's definatly a girl since it's a total opposite pregnancy. a few medical people think it's a girl too and all the old wives tales seem to say so too. sooooo we'll see in a few weeks i guess.
i hope you're all doing well and please continue to pray for my friend/ hair stylist Jessica, her husband Jarod and their baby Telan. her blood pressure has come down and is doing great. they seem to think she'll be able to make it to full term now, which is wonderful news!! they've struggled so much especially after losing Trinity. but Trinity has been looking out for her sister that's for sure!! Also pray for someone else, if you read my bulletin then you know about this girl. she told me a few days ago that Matt & i didn't deserve this baby and she hoped that i lost it so i would know what pain was. that's someone who needs a LOT of prayers to wish something like that on someone. and considering she's "supposably" pregnant herself... there will be more about that later, she should definatly think twice before she speaks. but i'm going to move Branson from our bed to his bed and go to bed myself. good night
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